I started reading through other blogs that I have written and came to the blog I wrote about Father's Day of this year. Here is what I wrote back on June 19th at the very end of the blog, "Father's Day was a reminder of who God created me to be, who he has molded me to be with influence from both of these men, and where He is leading me. I am reminded to never lose my saltiness and let my light shine before men, that they may see my good deeds and praise my Father in heaven." (taken from Matthew 5:13-16)
That they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
I had the honor of speaking at a women's ministry night about two weeks ago and this was one of the scriptures He lead me to include. What I didn't realize at the time was that He had been putting this scripture in front of me for months.
Since June.
Since Father's Day, which was also my birthday.
I have read that scripture a million times, and have always focused on my light shining.... but at this point in my life - this part sticks out to me so, so much. YOUR FATHER in Heaven.
I think in one way or another we have all known God to be....
Our Creator.
Our Maker.
Our Provider.
I have always thought that I have known Him as my Father, but not in the way that I have come to truly know Him as my Father over the last few months.
Prior to August 3rd, I would go to God with my troubles, but I would also talk it through with the parents that the Lord entrusted me to. Since August 3, 2012 - I have come to a place where God, my Father in Heaven, has been my sole source of love, of joy, of advice and has been my only parent.
When I need to process through something, I go to Him.
When I need a shoulder to cry on, I go to Him.
When I am angry, I go to Him.
When I don't know what to do in a situation, I go to Him.
When I am at the end of my rope, I go to Him.
When I need to be reminded that I am worthy of being loved, I go to Him.
When I need to be reminded that I am wanted as a member of a family, I go to Him.
When I look at my surroundings and feel alone and need to be reminded that I am not alone, I go to Him.
For the first time in my life, I feel like I really know what it means to have a Father in Heaven.
A Father that has always been there.
A Father that doesn't feel like a failure because of my past decisions.
A Father that delights in having me as His child.
A Father that knows my favorite food and my favorite color.
A Father that knows what makes me laugh and what makes me cry.
A Father that notices me.
A Father that would never harm me.
A Father that Forgives.
A Father that unconditionally loves me, no matter what.
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